Let’s start from the beggining shall we? It’s been a while since I posted, so I will explain the reasons now

I just had an emotional crysis. I started crying like a baby, I’m feeling numb right now . I don’t feel like gaming I just want to talk to someone. Basically my grandma is dying  , she has cancer and she also had a stroke, heart failure, kidney failure and all the things that are going on in my life are so bad .All the worse thoughts came true… Atleast,I’m not suicidal anymore and I don’t have any dark thoughts. I think I’ll draw something and I don’t feel like gaming ,I’m sorry … I keep apologizing for some reason and I forget things. I think I’m having a mixt episode (manic and depressive). Such a long and tiring day. I can’t do anything to improve my curent situation , I just have to live on and hope for the best…

I feel like everything is falling on my head , I feel like I’m about to explode and when I do, I’m going to be hospitalized again and I wanna feel better, I wanna get better.Why is this all happeing to me ? I can’t seem to find an explanation but to be honest maybe that’s how I’s meant to be.

Wanna know the worst part? The worst part is I don’t have the guy I like heside me right now.I’m in the mountains now , at Sinaia and I keep writing , I can’t stop, I cry and write.I feel so sad and I’m smoking cigarette after cigarette hoping thingst will eventually be okay.

And I’m fighting so hard to come out of the dark

Trying to turn off the night

Finally let in the light

Trying to make my misery just a piece of my history

A little less victim, a little more…

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