I should love myself better. What does it mean to love yourself ? How do you deal with all the bad things that happen in your life, how not to hate yourself when you feel like a failure? What is self esteem? To respect yourself ,before you respect others or just to respect yourself so others can respect you ?

Why do I hate myself so much? I just feel numb, I don’t have the power to go on, but I still do it. I get up of bed, I fake a smile, I go to back to bed feeling as empty as I was before.

How do you stop the tears when all you want is to cry your soul out ? How can you love someone when you can’t even love yourself ?

Same questions all over again are going through my head especially during the night. I wonder about things…but I still have no answer to this.